I'm trying

I'm trying to keep up this blog thing. its kinda difficult.

so im watching American Idol and they are showing all good people. WTF? ... and Paula Abdul is on something i'm not even lying. hahaha shes been eating chocolate milk with a spoon.

ok so i have a dilemna... have u ever just wanted to be friends with someone or get to know them but you just freeze up and everything you say sounds stupid? i have a case of that right now.

o well.

so my g-mamster is telling me i need to start looking for prom dresses. I'm real excited about the dress part but not so sure about the prom part. i'm getting kinda worried that prom will be awkward. i hope not. but what if someone asks me and i don't want to go? i'm terrible at rejecting people i dont think i could do it. o well.. anyways i don't think i'll have that problem anyways cuz i called up Jake Gyllenhaal and he said he'd love to go to prom with me.

ha ha


NOT!

The New Kid in Town

So... blog spot... as i have mentioned before.. i don't like blogs but i kinda like how this is a little more private than myspace. so maybe i shall muse because thats the verb of the day.

when looking up the definition of muse i get this:
–verb (used without object)

1.	to think or meditate in silence, as on some subject.

–verb (used without object)

1.	to think or meditate in silence, as on some subject.

2.	Archaic. to gaze meditatively or wonderingly.

–verb (used with object)

3.	to meditate on.

4.	to comment thoughtfully or ruminate upon.

ok sorry this got a little screwed up.

4.

omg i gaze meditatively all the time.. thats my new word... muse
let's comment thoughtfully shall we?

ya know what makes me mad? Getting picked on. i don't like it. sometimes i just want people to say nice things to me because that happens so rarely. i don't think people realize the power of compliments. its a small thing that means so much to people. I think that's why all my friends hate each other. we never compliment. yeah, its fun to joke around, but a well placed compliment could smooth things out a little. I'm thinkin about hosting a nice fest where we all go around and say something we like about each person because i like something special about each one of my friends. They are all such good strong minded respectable people. Valentine's Day. I'm doing it. We will make the boxes and people can put in little notes about each other. OMG THAT WOULD BE SO CUTE!! its happening.

wow... after that deep thought the pussycat dolls just came on and ruined my muse spirit. those little wenches.

so i changed the song and i'm better now.

so i think i'm gonna make a stand and be more friendly to people i don't know well. I'm gonna talk to people that i usually don't. you know the people in class you never even realized was there until like 5 days ago? This is my goal. Make 5... ok maybe 3 new friends. I feel this way because sometimes i feel bad for people who do not have the strong friend base that i have. I mean really when you think about it, i know my friends all hate each other... but i'm sure if any one of us were in need we would all be there. no doubt.

ok well i'm done with this blog. i did the damn thing.